Last week, I didn't do an update? Why? Because I'm a salty son of a bitch and I fucking hate you.
I actually just totally forgot about it. I was running late and posted Despair III right before I ran out the door. I didn't remember until like Tuesday that I forgot to do one of these things and thought, fuck it.
Also, I CONSTANTLY am typing "delirium" instead of "despair". Seriously, every time you see the word "Despair" whether it be in the novel, on my facebook page, or even in this update itself, you can expect that I probably had the word "Delirium" written there first and that I had to go back and edit it properly. I have no idea why, but my brain really seems to prefer the word "Delirium" over "Despair".
I think it's cause I'm drunk so often. And that delirium is just sort of a natural state for me. Therefore my brain meats find comfort in typing that word.
Either that or I'm just a salty son of a bitch.
Yeah, that's probably it.
Oh, and Despair IV is up.
In a little bit of coincidental poetry, Delirium VII debuts today, on this day of the Autumnal Equinox. So the fall of the world begins with the fall of the season.
Though I would like to state that Chapter 6 - Despair will NOT be the final chapter of the book. Even though, yes, the world is ending, the narrator still has quite a journey ahead of him until he ends up on a little boat in the middle of the Atlantic. In fact, Chapter 6 only marks the midway point of the novel. I haven't even come close to finishing up.
So get your bunnies and your Beatrice outfits and your Thai food ready. Cause this is when shit starts getting real.
Today's update comes to you via the miracles of modern technology. Currently, I am jammed into a tiny airplane seat with my rather large laptop consuming near more space than I am (I'm a greedy son of a bitch and like a big screen). Arms aching, I have finally finished the last minute edits of Delirium VI (why do I always have so many last minute edits?) and gotten the piece live. So, the update is a smidge late. I hope you all can forgive me.
And I hope you all pray I make it home alive from Las Vegas. Else AKOD might turn into a cliffhanger novel rather quickly.
"Start to go wrong?" you ask yourself.
Well, yes and no. Obviously things have been "going wrong" for some time now. But in Delirium V, things get personal. The world stops falling apart around the narrator and begins to fall on him.
Only a little bit though. The worst is still being saved for Despair.
So enjoy these last few, upbeat portions of AKOD. Cause in a few weeks, everything that's come before Despair is gonna seem like a great big basket of kittens.
Today, two things happen. First, it is roughly the 7 month anniversary since the beginning of A Kind of Drug's serialization.
Two, Delirium IV is now live. It's a little shorter than most segments, but it was either that or release a huge, 10-page segment. And, let's be honest, I'm not exactly at the point in my life where I can write 10, polished, finished pages of work in one week. So, 4.5 pages it is.
And at this point, you're probably asking yourself - "Where's this lapdance you mentioned in the title?"
Good question. In fact, I'd like to ask you the same thing. Where is my goddamn lapdance? You fucking liars.
I hate you all.
For those of you who read these updates, you know that I've recently been frustrated with my writing over the last few parts of AKOD. I've had to continually scrap and rewrite the material which has put my way further behind where I'd like to be with the book.
Also, going back and re-reading some of the previously posted pages (say that 5 times real fast), I'm still not 100% happy with what got posted. So, I'd like to be the first to say that I'm sorry and I hope from here on in I'll be able to deliver the quality of work that everyone had gotten used to during the first couple chapters of the book. If you don't feel that way, then great. Ignore the apology. Carry on.
With all that said, Delirium Part III really is old school. It's a "stand-alone" story that's once again told in the third person rather than the first. There's death. There's arrests. There's crazy people. There's even a little bit of sexual assault. And I guess if I'm going old school, I should also say there's bunnies and a minx named Beatrice.
(Oh, you may also notice that it's a cannibalization of another one of my short stories.)
After you've read Delirium III, any and all feedback would be greatly appreciated. Thank you. And enjoy.
...don't feel like being clever.
So, please insert your own witty commentary here about writing and life.
Oh, and Delirium Part II is now live. Guess that's important to note, eh?
Whatever. I'm gonna go play video games and pretend like all this "reality" stuff isn't actually happening.
At the end of Chapter 3, when I posted the "Behind the Scenes" pieces, I talked about how writing can sometimes be very frustrating. That you find yourself working against yourself on a relatively frequent basis. That you are "punching yourself in the face".
Well, that sort of happened again here.
Only a week or two ago, I was looking over the chapter and realized that while I hadn't screwed up Delirium as bad as I screwed up Hilarity, I did have the tone and pacing all wrong. This means I am now in the process of re-writing most of the chapter while simultaneously trying to conceptualize and write Chapter 6 - Despair.
Punching. Myself. In the face.
So, please, bear with me these next few weeks. I might be even less sane than normal.